And thus Spoke Pi.

3/2/16

The only way Trump wins...

Is poor Democratic turnout. Which is IMPOSSIBLE if he's the nominee.

He is America's Hitler, but America is no Weimar Republic, no matter what 666 News says.

The only mystery is how many Democrats Hillary can bring with her to Washington. She's already positioning herself for the general, and she's doing it the right way by appealing to whole base. If she can get Bernie and Obama to help her in the general, I'll be hopeful.

If it's just her, Bill, and the DNC, I will despair.

Politics update

Bernie's campaign has failed to make inroads among minorities, and that's a death sentence for a Democrat. He's back to a 'protest' vote, and I hope he leverages his position well - Cabinet position, unlikely, but platform planks and real legislation is possible.

Trump will go into the convention with the most delegates, but the Republicans will kill his nomination anyway. Marco and Ted are both talking contested convention, so the only real question is who the smoke-filled room will pick.

There is no way the Republicans can mount a serious Presidential race this year. If they backstab Trump(as I expect), the 30~40% of the base that worships at his feet will revolt. If they run him, the rest of the country ignores the Republican party for the foreseeable future. People don't have short memories for things like THE KKK ENDORSED PRESIDENTIAL CANDIDATE. That's going to stay in the public conscience for a while methinks. And that's so say nothing of the potential revolts among mid-rank Republicans...

The big problem the Democrats have right now is the PLUMMET in attendance. Poor numbers in the caucus bode ill for the general. Even if she wins, if she can't bring Democrats into office downticket a-la Obama 2008, we're going to see a complete retread of the first Clinton presidency - TPP as the new NAFTA, BLM as the new Sista Soulja, and even a potential gutting of Obamacare, all to 'get something done' with rapid, insane racists. Give Hillary a chance, and she'll throw her newfound love of the left to the wind, and govern as Republican as her husband. She's a political cypher, and would feel no compunction throwing the entire Obama coalition under the bus in the name of 'getting-something-done'. And oh GOD I am terrified of her foreign policy...HENRY FUCKING KISSINGER ARE YOU INSANE WOMAN???

The low turnout on the Democratic side is what's keeping me up at night. A woman in the White House is swell, but is she can't bring in a Democratic Congress, we're no further along than we are now.

And without a Democratic majority in Congress, you can kiss any hope of real immigration reform goodbye. There is no middle ground between 'deport them all' and 'let's be humane'. If you're one of the idiots thinking Trump can 'cut a deal', you're just as imbecilic as you are racist. He's already said a wall is a must have, and there's no way you can start from 'deport them all, wall, wall, wall' and arrive at something even the Blue Dogs would be proud of. Say what you will about the Democratic establishment, they have at least SOME semblance of a soul.

I am not hopeful about our political future. Clinton hasn't shown she can drive the base, and that's the biggest threat to real progress in the country. Maybe if she pulls Bernie closer to her at the convention (VP pick?) we could see a real united and energized party, but I honestly don't see Hillary doing that. The Presidential side of things is SUPER strong for Democrats, but a failure to seize the Congress means pain...and no, that is NOT reason to vote for Trump despite what SO MANY FUCKING IDIOTS THINK.

I'd like to close on a note to everyone who voted Obama now, and are seriously considering voting Trump -

GO. FUCK. YOURSELVES.

I need a drink...

1/28/16

YES FIRST PULLUP

It was just one, but I did it from resting, with no assist! YES! Personal goal achieved!

I've also come up with this fun workout where I never drop the weights...except when I use the as pushup bars. Fun times :)

1/26/16

Another day, another doc

I did not know you could get CAT scans for your heart! They wanna take a look at my ticker and make sure I don't have...some disorder I don't remember the name of.

Threw out my name resume to a startup. Hoping to hear back - they allow remote!

1/24/16

Another day

Family's starting to ask what my plans are. I was thinking about school, but I don't wanna take on any debt, so I think college is out of the question. Fuck that student loan noise!

Sent an application to the Phoenix New Times. They're looking for a freelance culture writer, and I pitched myself as a videogame writer. Hopefully I'll be able talk about indies in a local paper! That'd be sweet.

1/22/16

I am forced to eat crow!

The RNC, in a show of solidarity with Donald Trump, are uninviting the Nation Review from the next Republican debate. The National Review published an issue dedicated to dissing The Donald, and now...I'm sorry I just literally lolled!

THE RNC.

HOLY SHIT.

THEY REALLY THINK TRUMP CAN WIN!!!!

;3

Sure he can embarrass America. Sure, he can make America take a LONG, DEEP, look into the National Mirror (Reflecting Pool?) But win? No. Remember that the only reason any Republican wins is the dumb rubes who let the dog whistle politics COMPLETELY fly over their heads. The people who tell themselves they like MLK, and that MLK would like them. Meanwhile, they work with their every political action to undermine his legacy.

Self image is important to these people! Trump dispels with the fig leaf of plausible deniability that made the racist, satanic GOP work. He exposes the raw, undulating HATRED that has fueled the rightwing of this country since the beginning, and Soccer Moms (tm) hate that shit. He has no coalition, only VERY LOUD, VERY VOCAL, crazy people.

He has a 0% chance of building a national coalition. He has a 0% chance of building an actual 'ground game' to get out the vote come election day. Trump's whole campaign is nothing but media hot air! What happens when he realizes he needs...discipline? Day in, day out, hoofing to town halls? To local media? He doesn't have the attention span for that!

Yeah he'll make our already rancorous national dialogue worse. But he'll burn out in such a spectacular fashion, ALL of America will come together and sing that great Negro spiritual "Free at last, free at last, THANK GOD ALMIGHTY, FREE AT LAST!" One day, your grandchildren will ask you...where were YOU when you learned that the American Hitler lost?

I am a torrent of emotions

Hopeful for the future of the planet, but unhopeful for my own future. I still think Bernie has the nomination (and thus the Presidency) in the bag, but I look to my own future with only trepidation. I can't work, I can't listen, and it pains me. I have no idea how to get on welfare, so I don't know what I'm supposed to do. I can't find a doctor to help me, and I'm not looking forward to having to explain myself to my physician.

On the bright side, I am working out way more. I'm also getting some things done around the house. It just feels like treading water on a sinking ship - the certainty of future money problems oppresses my every thought and action. I'm an objective failure, and I have no chance of not being so. I can't use my only marketable talent (programming), since my autism prevents me from focusing on stuff other people want me to do. This was literally my whole problem in industry - management wanted it done fast (measure never, cut a million times) and I wanted to do it right (measure twice, cut once)

I can see myself slowly getting back on an indie track, but that's not going to make any money, ever. Unless I get some kind of big blockbuster, and none of the games I want to make are like that. I can hope and pray, but I have immediate money needs that need to be addressed. I can't even afford my medical marijuana, and without that I feel even worse than normal. Being high is the only time I feel 'normal', like a functioning person. No acting, no anxiety, just serenity.

I miss my medicine, and I miss my independence. I'm doubtless going to be trapped here the rest of my life.

Please God, I need a miracle.